Classes are finally over. Now I just have to work on my final project and study for two exams and I get to go the fuck home. All glory to the hypnotoad.

My sleep schedule is so off. I've been going to bed at 5-6pm and waking up super early the last few days. In fact I blew off a movie with friends and Guitar Hero with Matt just to sleep yesterday cuz I was dead tired. *sigh*

My personal life is under reconstruction right now. I tore it all down because I thought there was something wrong with it but it turns out I'm just fucking retarded so now I have to try and rebuild my relationship with my boyfriend from the ground up. It's only going to be harder because now his family hates me and I dunno how he can trust me anymore but I'm going to try anyways. No I didn't cheat on him, I just ... said some stuff I didn't mean.

Additionally I'm still going to feel guilty about it because no matter which way I play this situation, someone I care about gets hurt.

My whole life is under damage control right now. I have to make up homework that I missed, do tons of work that I've put off until the last second, repair broken and damaged relationships, get my financial aid sorted out, look for a job, and read four books, all while fighting off this months long depression/funk that I've been in. I think it's finally starting to go away a little bit but it's still lingering around. A few days ago I just hit my low point and was just ... sleeping constantly and crying when I wasn't sleeping. I think I'm over that now but I still feel like shit.

I need people to come see me and make me feel loved. I need to go back to my mommy u.u