So I haven't written a journal in forever. Since I never write these when I'm happy and always when I'm crushingly depressed, brace yourselves and get out now while you still can. Or just read out of curiosity, I don't really care. I'm not really looking for a shoulder to cry on, I just do this for catharsis - and if you don't know what that means, look it up. :3

This weekend I:
- beat Suikoden 1 (for like the 8th time)
- started playing Crisis Core (amazing)
- didn't do any of the work I have due this coming week

Wait a minute Don! Why are you playing video games, and sleeping at weird hours, and not doing your schoolwork?
Well me, that's an excellent question. I don't fucking know either. Well I'm just gonna go through and list all the shitty things that have happened recently.

My buddy Matt who I moved into this building so we could hang out more? Yeah he never talks to me now. All he does is fuck his ugly, ANNOYING girlfriend. I hate her so much. And the other day he told me we're no longer friends, which was news to me. I didn't know we weren't friends. Nobody told me. We didn't even have an argument, we just stopped talking. That's awesome. NEXT

I have about a million different things I'm obligated to do, and if you know me, you know I never come through on these things. I have to:
- write two 10 page papers
- write a 20 page paper
- do illustrations for some bitch's graduate thesis for SHIT money
- do my BFA project art
- do a powerpoint presentation on arranged marriage for my Sociology class
- two animations for my shitty Media and Motion Graphics class with a teacher who couldn't teach a dog not to piss on the carpet with a magic dog teaching wand that magically teaches dogs things

None of that stuff I just listed interests me in the LEAST. I don't care at all. I won't learn anything doing it, it's just mindless shit work that I have to do because that's what college is apparently.

My boyfriend's brother doesn't like me at all. He thinks I'm the shit scum of the Earth. He's probably right. I'm doing my best not to let it ruin what I have with Jacey, but since they spend every waking moment together due to Jacey's medical condition I can see how our future might be difficult if he hates me.

Kami finally got back online the other day. That was nice except he didn't even talk to me. I finally went into pchat with him and Pup and he was like oh hi it's been a while blah blah pleasantries, and then he went back to drawing with her. Because you know ... he can be bothered to get in touch with fucking everybody but me when he's online. I'm not gonna try anymore, because it literally makes me cry that he cares so little about me. Even when we were thinking about going out he was like that. And he's so sweet when he talks to me that it's like ... I can't even understand how he can talk like that and then be so inconsiderate. It's like his naivete makes him MEAN or something. And I can never tell whether it's on purpose. He says it's not, but it's like ... it seems like the guy avoids me. I dunno. I guess shit between us is just awkward. I'm leaving it alone from now on. I don't need the drama. ... it still hurts though. I'm just gonna delete him off of AIM and not look back.

I've had to do that with a lot of people lately. I don't mean to do shit like that but I think I'm burning so many bridges lately that soon I'm gonna be on an island all by myself. haha ... that's so sad. No wonder I'm depressed.